Happy Ever After or Happy Right Now?

     A lot has happened over the past week or so. But I will start with today. A morning of homework and gabbing with a friend over lunch in the dining hall, an afternoon of classes and meetings, and then an anxious evening preparing for my first college auditions. (The way the department here does the auditions for the department headed productions is through a big general audition). It was one of those auditions where you really can't tell how you did, and you just want to puke the whole time. I came back to my dorm, curled up in bed with my US History text book to try and distract myself until callbacks are posted....didn't work too well...

    This weekend was lovely. Friday was spent playing catch up with my more "domestic" chores and homework. Saturday was terribly exciting. My friend took me to see my first broadway show for my birthday. We went to see Annie at the Palace Theater in Times Square. Even surrounded by a billion little girls in Annie costumes under the age of 8, I was still giddy. I was transported from the opening lines to the last bows. Then after the show we got a backstage tour with a friend of my friend's family, who was understudying for Daddy Warbucks. On a side note, its a good idea to have something to hold on to when riding the subway, because stumbling into your seat is a perfect way to point out to the other passengers "I am not a New Yorker and I don't know how to ride a train!" Sunday was a blur of sleeping in and homework with a fantastic evening out bumming around Bronxville with my friend Melanie, seeing a movie, getting ice cream and running errands at the local CVS.

     College isn't perfect. The dining hall is getting a bit less appealing as the weeks go on, sharing a community bathroom is actually pretty gross, and walking up and down the massive hill to and from the student center/dining hall is no walk in the park. (I know I am not known for my love of walking, but this hill really is a pain.) Homework isn't bad.....yet.....but I am really excited to start my term papers (called conference work). 

      The monologue I did tonight was all about growing up and trying to hold/let go of your childhood fairy tale daydreams. I have been dreaming of going to college since I was 11, so for me college seems sort of like a fairy tale. Not to mention I am attending one of the most beautiful colleges ever. A mix of modern, colonial houses and tudor revival buildings scattered across a sprawling campus dotted with leafy trees, small (and big) hills and rocky cliffs. But like in my monologue, its not so important that its happy ever after, just that its happy right now. And happy I am. 

PS. My mailbox is still lonely. Only one person has sent me anything that was not coming straight from amazon!! (Thanks Beth!!)